I was at the mall with a few friends today and I said something that a probably shouldn’t have. I mean the words I uttered where so blatantly stupid, and so unbelievable insensitive that I soon as i said them i regretted them. Then i started to hate myself, and I wanted to cut so badly. I was panicking. All of my friends where there and I was in a public place so it’s not like I could whip out a blade and just go to town on myself. I felt so vulnerable. So then I started to get desperate and I took a sharp hanger and secretively dug it into my skin. It did some damage but nothing a real sharp object could do. It wasn’t good enough so i finally stopped. Then my friend pointed out a necklace that had sharp spiky things on it, and so I took it and again dug the point into my forearm. These unfortunate events honestly show how absolutely pathetic I am. I’ve never felt so much hatred for myself like this in a long time…