And by ‘diagnosed’ I mean it’s really a self-diagnosed thing even though my therapist mentioned it frequently whenever I’d have a session. I suppose I’ll ask more about it next time…Anyways It’s called “Catastrophic Thinking Disorder”. The name itself is pretty self explanatory but to elaborate it basically means I think up the worst case scenario of any common situation. It’s a type of anxiety from what I’ve read about it so far. I guess it makes a lot of sense because of my incoherent ramblings on here and also because I’ve always thought up these horrendous stories in my head

They usually happen like this…

1. friend invites me to the movies

2. I could not make it to the movies 

3. friend believes I’m ignoring them 

4. friend goes in deep(er) depression

5. Friend commits suicide 

7. I feel guilty about death

6. I then commit suicide

* just a side note the two in Italics ACTUALLY happened the others are what I think up.

and yeah thats how it usually goes down…(in greater detail of course)

so that’s my fucked up brain and another installment of why I belong in a mental institute. good day and remember to smile my dear followers <3